Dear March 2008:
This is your moment. You have a chance to redeem 2008 from its rocky start. The past two months have been hard, challenging and quite frankly, crappy. In retrospect, these two months of trying times have made me stronger and worth all the pain to reach joy. I don't blame January and February for what they offered me. Nothing is wasted and there is a reason for everything. There is no joy without experiencing sorrow.
That's right, March, I didn't forget the campaign promise: Joy for 2008.
So here we go. This is your moment to shine. Rise above the preceding months and help me remember that everything's going to be all right. That all these weeks of rough starts and waves of grief was paving the way of delight and joy and freedom.
Sure, that's a lot of pressure to put on you. You're not used to having so much riding on the the days that number your space on the calendar year. But I believe in you. You can make this happen. And even if you don't, that's fine. I'll move on to April. But don't let that give you an excuse to fail to rise to the challenge.
Yes, March 2008, this is an exciting time for us. This is your moment. Make it count.
Thank you in advance for your kind consideration. See you in a few hours.
Currently watching : Scrubs - The Complete Sixth Season
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
When is Homecoming?
Is it November yet?
At the risk of admitting that I get some of my news from CNN.com, I came across an article today about the latest results from the national Poll of Polls (yes, that is a real thing). Addressing the question of the electability of Obama or Clinton against McCain in the general election, the results of the independents was this:
"Independents are crucial swing voters. They give McCain a solid lead over Clinton, according to the New York Times-CBS News poll. But independents abandon McCain for Obama. If Obama's the alternative, McCain's support among independents drops from 52 percent to 36 percent."
It reminds me of student council elections where the principal addresses the assembly of students to remind them that this is not a popularity contest.
Sigh. Silly Rabbits.
It's sad to me that we (Republican, Democrat, Independent, Indifferent) are waiting for a leader, but we feel we have to settle for who offends us the least or the most likeable. We don't really like anyone, but we're willing to vote for Person A over Person B if Person C and Person D don't make it to the ballot. But, we would pick Person B over Person C if Person A doesn't make it. Blah. Election Math.
And they said you never really leave high school.
If our American election process is reduced to a popularity contest, then I think the least the labor force could do is give us a two month summer break.
To read the full article: Popular Kids
At the risk of admitting that I get some of my news from CNN.com, I came across an article today about the latest results from the national Poll of Polls (yes, that is a real thing). Addressing the question of the electability of Obama or Clinton against McCain in the general election, the results of the independents was this:
"Independents are crucial swing voters. They give McCain a solid lead over Clinton, according to the New York Times-CBS News poll. But independents abandon McCain for Obama. If Obama's the alternative, McCain's support among independents drops from 52 percent to 36 percent."
It reminds me of student council elections where the principal addresses the assembly of students to remind them that this is not a popularity contest.
Sigh. Silly Rabbits.
It's sad to me that we (Republican, Democrat, Independent, Indifferent) are waiting for a leader, but we feel we have to settle for who offends us the least or the most likeable. We don't really like anyone, but we're willing to vote for Person A over Person B if Person C and Person D don't make it to the ballot. But, we would pick Person B over Person C if Person A doesn't make it. Blah. Election Math.
And they said you never really leave high school.
If our American election process is reduced to a popularity contest, then I think the least the labor force could do is give us a two month summer break.
To read the full article: Popular Kids
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
So, I've been battling this stress-produced headache for the past couple of weeks. As such, I have developed this habit of pinching the bridge of my nose. I thought nothing of it until I looked at myself in the mirror and see a faint red line along the ridge of my nose.
Yup. Popped a blood vessel. Vanity at its best, I obsessed over it for awhile, pointing out this near invisible blemish to everyone I talked to today. It's superficial, I know, but it serves as yet another reminder that everything's changing.
I suppose that everything is fluid; nothing stays the same; the only thing constant is change and other cliches. But its taking its toll on me. I've gone radio silent. I've filled every single moment of my life with something. I've slept the days away. I've had insomnia. I've eaten too much. I've not eaten at all. I've regressed. I've escaped. I've been overly joyful (dance of joy!). I've cried until there was nothing left.
And now I've popped a blood vessel. What joy is mine.
I don't know what's going on with me. Nothing's terribly wrong and things can always be worse. I'm going into an exciting time in my life and I've endured some life altering situations. My persepective has changed dramatically a few times and I've held onto my own beliefs to cope with all that is changing around me. I am nothing and everything at the same time.
Yes...I'm a walking cliche.
I don' know why today was harder than other days. Everything's really mostly good, but something hit me today that I didn't expect. I would have normally called this person to share this crazy observation on life, but I realized I couldn't. We're no longer friends. I lost a friendship with someone I didn't know was so important to me until our friendship abruptly ended. Five years I've known this person and everything's changed. And I can't do anything to make it better or make it the way it was before this craziness.
Cliche Number 343: You never know what you have until it's gone.
So now I have this funny story that I know my friend would have thoroughly enjoyed and its swimming in my head. And it only reminds me that I really do miss my friend.
Sigh. Time heals all wounds.
The point of all this is that I've been wounded. And I am having a hard time coping today. But its just today. Tomorrow will be better...for tomorrow is an-...
...nah. I won't finish that cliche.
Yup. Popped a blood vessel. Vanity at its best, I obsessed over it for awhile, pointing out this near invisible blemish to everyone I talked to today. It's superficial, I know, but it serves as yet another reminder that everything's changing.
I suppose that everything is fluid; nothing stays the same; the only thing constant is change and other cliches. But its taking its toll on me. I've gone radio silent. I've filled every single moment of my life with something. I've slept the days away. I've had insomnia. I've eaten too much. I've not eaten at all. I've regressed. I've escaped. I've been overly joyful (dance of joy!). I've cried until there was nothing left.
And now I've popped a blood vessel. What joy is mine.
I don't know what's going on with me. Nothing's terribly wrong and things can always be worse. I'm going into an exciting time in my life and I've endured some life altering situations. My persepective has changed dramatically a few times and I've held onto my own beliefs to cope with all that is changing around me. I am nothing and everything at the same time.
Yes...I'm a walking cliche.
I don' know why today was harder than other days. Everything's really mostly good, but something hit me today that I didn't expect. I would have normally called this person to share this crazy observation on life, but I realized I couldn't. We're no longer friends. I lost a friendship with someone I didn't know was so important to me until our friendship abruptly ended. Five years I've known this person and everything's changed. And I can't do anything to make it better or make it the way it was before this craziness.
Cliche Number 343: You never know what you have until it's gone.
So now I have this funny story that I know my friend would have thoroughly enjoyed and its swimming in my head. And it only reminds me that I really do miss my friend.
Sigh. Time heals all wounds.
The point of all this is that I've been wounded. And I am having a hard time coping today. But its just today. Tomorrow will be better...for tomorrow is an-...
...nah. I won't finish that cliche.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
And so it goes
Funny how fast a year goes by.
It is a year today (Sunday) that I had my last shift at Starbucks. My first year at World Vision is on Tuesday. My, how time flies.
I am glad to say that I am still doing my dance of joy (and it has gotten sillier in the past year).
The feeling on the tips of my fingers have finally come back and my car is no longer a coffee-scented tomb...especialy considering that I have a completely different car...but that's beside the point.
However, I do miss the coffee discount and my co-workers at 6th and Pine. We've all moved on to bigger and better things, but I look back with fond memories when I think about my first 18 months slinging coffee. Serving coffee to customers day after day after day after day would have been absolutely unbearable without all of my friends.
Welcome to Thursday. Good times, good times.
It is a year today (Sunday) that I had my last shift at Starbucks. My first year at World Vision is on Tuesday. My, how time flies.
I am glad to say that I am still doing my dance of joy (and it has gotten sillier in the past year).
The feeling on the tips of my fingers have finally come back and my car is no longer a coffee-scented tomb...especialy considering that I have a completely different car...but that's beside the point.
However, I do miss the coffee discount and my co-workers at 6th and Pine. We've all moved on to bigger and better things, but I look back with fond memories when I think about my first 18 months slinging coffee. Serving coffee to customers day after day after day after day would have been absolutely unbearable without all of my friends.
Welcome to Thursday. Good times, good times.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Glory
And that life is laid before us filled with the glorious and the challenging.--Hal Sparks
So, my brain is full again. I have all of this information that I am not sure what to do with, and I can't make heads or tails of it. Now, I don't know if the world ever made sense to me, but I'd like to think that there was one moment in my childhood when I believed that everything was good and pure and right and true.
If I knew what I know now, I would have held on to that moment a little longer.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be dramatic. The hand's not on the top of the forehead, and I am not fainting onto the couch under the pressures of the world. Instead, I'm standing in utter disbelief at the world around me, wondering where in the world did we go wrong. And if there is anything we can do to make it right.
I do not believe that we are owned by the demons lurking in our past. We are better than that; whether we believe we deserve it or not. But in the weakest, must vulnerable parts of me, I still doubt. I may be hanging on to hope by a single thread, but the point is...I've still got hope.
And it is in that very hope; that dare to keep on believing in something better; that makes us glorious.
Currently watching : The Lord of the Rings - The Return of the King (Platinum Series Special Extended Edition)
So, my brain is full again. I have all of this information that I am not sure what to do with, and I can't make heads or tails of it. Now, I don't know if the world ever made sense to me, but I'd like to think that there was one moment in my childhood when I believed that everything was good and pure and right and true.
If I knew what I know now, I would have held on to that moment a little longer.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be dramatic. The hand's not on the top of the forehead, and I am not fainting onto the couch under the pressures of the world. Instead, I'm standing in utter disbelief at the world around me, wondering where in the world did we go wrong. And if there is anything we can do to make it right.
I do not believe that we are owned by the demons lurking in our past. We are better than that; whether we believe we deserve it or not. But in the weakest, must vulnerable parts of me, I still doubt. I may be hanging on to hope by a single thread, but the point is...I've still got hope.
And it is in that very hope; that dare to keep on believing in something better; that makes us glorious.
Currently watching : The Lord of the Rings - The Return of the King (Platinum Series Special Extended Edition)
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Super Nerd on Super Tuesday
Super Tuesday is today. And that really doesn't mean a whole lot in politics like it used to, but it still holds some interest for me. However, that's not the reason why I'm excited:
I got my absentee ballot for the Washington Primary today.
It's the little things that get me excited. So this blog is more of a reminder that although the media dubbed "rest of America" is voting today, our state's primary is February 19th. Here's my plea: stop reading/watching the news/blogs/commentaries and VOTE.
Ok. Back to your regular programming.
Currently reading : Waking the Dead: The Glory of a Heart Fully Alive By John Eldredge
I got my absentee ballot for the Washington Primary today.
It's the little things that get me excited. So this blog is more of a reminder that although the media dubbed "rest of America" is voting today, our state's primary is February 19th. Here's my plea: stop reading/watching the news/blogs/commentaries and VOTE.
Ok. Back to your regular programming.
Currently reading : Waking the Dead: The Glory of a Heart Fully Alive By John Eldredge
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Driven to Distraction
So...Insomnia, my old friend, is paying me a visit. As such, I have been a walking zombie for the the past few weeks, only to find a brief respite at my grandparents house when I take a two-hour nap and I am finally dead to the world...
It was then I realized that I have not written in quite awhile. While I am not one to reveal the exact details of what plagues me most, I will share the other random details that have been spinning around in my mind as of late.
And perhaps, I can find a cure. :-D
1. Edward Norton. I love him. I only own two of his movies, and they have been on repeat on my DVD player. I don't know why, but I like him. And I like his nose. Yes...I am weird, but that's not why I can't sleep at night.
2. I need a haircut. Its been almost a year since I had one, and I can't find the person who cut my hair last.
3. Dave Matthews Band. The past couple of years are not my favorites, but his earlier LPs are fantastic. I've been listening to the Crash LP for awhile now. "Two Step" is my current obsession.
4. Rebuilding life is hard. Worth it, but hard. Sometimes, the life we had left behind appears easier and the temptation to go back to it gets harder to resist.
5. "In a blink of an eye." I have never understood this phrase before now. I wish I didn't.
6. Ignorance really is bliss.
7. I actually do like reading fiction. But I'm still only reading ones from decades ago. Any suggestions are welcome. Currently trying to get through "Persuasion" by Jane Austen. Contemplating reading "Anna Karenina" but not sure about the commitment.
8. I find that most of the time, I'm bored to distraction. Except for when its time for bed. Go figure.
9. I love the underdog. (Go Eli Manning!) I have to say that I root for the underdog all the time. My heart goes for the people that are overlooked and underappreciated. Never underestimate people.
10. Never assume people's backstories. Everyone has a public face and everyone has a private face. I find the private faces much more interesting.
11. I would really enjoy a glass of merlot right now.
12. I really need to stop trying to save everyone.
::::big sigh::::
I'll get through this. I've still got hope that there's more to life than what's floating in my brain. I don't know what I'm waiting for, but I'm waiting. In the end, I have my books.
And Edward Norton.
Currently watching : The Painted Veil
It was then I realized that I have not written in quite awhile. While I am not one to reveal the exact details of what plagues me most, I will share the other random details that have been spinning around in my mind as of late.
And perhaps, I can find a cure. :-D
1. Edward Norton. I love him. I only own two of his movies, and they have been on repeat on my DVD player. I don't know why, but I like him. And I like his nose. Yes...I am weird, but that's not why I can't sleep at night.
2. I need a haircut. Its been almost a year since I had one, and I can't find the person who cut my hair last.
3. Dave Matthews Band. The past couple of years are not my favorites, but his earlier LPs are fantastic. I've been listening to the Crash LP for awhile now. "Two Step" is my current obsession.
4. Rebuilding life is hard. Worth it, but hard. Sometimes, the life we had left behind appears easier and the temptation to go back to it gets harder to resist.
5. "In a blink of an eye." I have never understood this phrase before now. I wish I didn't.
6. Ignorance really is bliss.
7. I actually do like reading fiction. But I'm still only reading ones from decades ago. Any suggestions are welcome. Currently trying to get through "Persuasion" by Jane Austen. Contemplating reading "Anna Karenina" but not sure about the commitment.
8. I find that most of the time, I'm bored to distraction. Except for when its time for bed. Go figure.
9. I love the underdog. (Go Eli Manning!) I have to say that I root for the underdog all the time. My heart goes for the people that are overlooked and underappreciated. Never underestimate people.
10. Never assume people's backstories. Everyone has a public face and everyone has a private face. I find the private faces much more interesting.
11. I would really enjoy a glass of merlot right now.
12. I really need to stop trying to save everyone.
::::big sigh::::
I'll get through this. I've still got hope that there's more to life than what's floating in my brain. I don't know what I'm waiting for, but I'm waiting. In the end, I have my books.
And Edward Norton.
Currently watching : The Painted Veil
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